“Turn Out the Lights” by Julien Baker was used at the end of Episode 109 during a montage where several characters are viewed: Jared had just told Michaela to stay with her, and not go find Lourdes. The scene then shifts to the Stone house where Ben hugs Olive as Graces stands by; Ben then says goodbye to Cal. Cal gives his dad his favorite stuffed animal, Art the Dragon, before running up the stairs. Ben then looks at Grace before leaving out the front door. The montage ends with a night scene of the New York city skyline, and the George Washington Bridge.
This song is about dealing with problems on your own, but realising that when it comes down to it you only have yourself to rely on. By turning out the lights, you’re alone and you have to deal with things alone. In an interview with Face Culture, Baker explained how the song externalized the feelings she experienced while on tour. She said, “I think writing that song and externalizing how I was feeling: that I was feeling isolated and saying, like, you know, “whenever it’s time to go to bed, and I turn out the lights, I have to confront all the parts of myself that I haven’t quite come to terms with yet” helped me do that. It helped me confront the things about myself that I might think are ugly or a problem and realize that I can embrace those things.”1Endnotes: