Turn Out the Lights

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“Turn Out the Lights” by Julien Baker was used at the end of Episode 109 during a montage where several characters are viewed: Jared had just told Michaela to stay with her, and not go find Lourdes. The scene then shifts to the Stone house where Ben hugs Olive as Graces stands by; Ben then says goodbye to Cal. Cal gives his dad his favorite stuffed animal, Art the Dragon, before running up the stairs. Ben then looks at Grace before leaving out the front door. The montage ends with a night scene of the New York city skyline, and the George Washington Bridge.

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Scene Excerpt from 109.21

Scene shifts to hospital where Jared wakes up. 

MICHAELA: Jared. Jared.

JARED: Ugh.

MICHAELA: Thank you, thank you, thank you.

JARED: Hi.

MICHAELA: Hi. Hi. Hi. Lourdes is on her way. I’ll go. I’ll go get her.

JARED: No, no, please. Stay with me.

//MUSIC BEGINS//

MICHAELA: Okay.

🎵 There’s a hole in the drywall, still not fixed 🎵
🎵 I just haven’t gotten around to it 🎵

Scene shifts to Stone house

🎵 And besides I’m starting to get used to the gaps 🎵

Ben hugs Olive as Graces stands by; Ben then says goodbye to Cal.

🎵 When I turn out the lights? 🎵
🎵 When I turn out the lights? 🎵

Cal gives his dad his favorite stuffed animal, Art the Dragon, before running up the stairs. Ben then looks at Grace before leaving out the front door.

🎵 There’s no one left 🎵

We see a scene of the New York city skyline, and the George Washington Bridge.

🎵 Between myself and me 🎵

 //MUSIC ENDS//

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[Verse 1] There’s a hole in the drywall still not fixed
I just haven’t gotten around to it
And besides I’m starting to get used to the gaps

Say you wish you could find some way to help
Not to be so hard on myself
So why is it easy for everyone else?
I’m not always like this
There’s always tomorrow I guess

[Verse 2] And I’d never do it but it’s not a joke
I can’t tell the difference when I’m all alone
Is it real or a dream, which is worse?
Can you help me?

I just wanted to go to sleep

[Bridge] (When I turn out the lights)
When I turn out the lights
There’s no one left
Between myself and me [Chorus] But when I turn out the lights
When I turn out the lights
When I turn out the lights, oh
There’s no one left
Between myself and me

Significance

This song is about dealing with problems on your own, but realising that when it comes down to it you only have yourself to rely on. By turning out the lights, you’re alone and you have to deal with things alone. In an interview with Face Culture, Baker explained how the song externalized the feelings she experienced while on tour. She said, “I think writing that song and externalizing how I was feeling: that I was feeling isolated and saying, like, you know, “whenever it’s time to go to bed, and I turn out the lights, I have to confront all the parts of myself that I haven’t quite come to terms with yet” helped me do that. It helped me confront the things about myself that I might think are ugly or a problem and realize that I can embrace those things.”1

Endnotes:
  1. https://genius.com/Julien-baker-turn-out-the-lights-lyrics
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